wrap up.
Not everything ends up the way you imagined it would end up when you get a chance to start fresh. Most of the time, NOTHING ends up the way you wanted it to. As my first year as a graduate student comes to a close I can’t help but admit to the fact that I’ve failed to meet every single expectation that I had for myself. My expectations for academic performance, making new friends, getting a job, and even for my physical health… I’ve fallen short in all of them.
I can always try to assuage the pain by falling back on the “things happen for a reason” saying but this time I refuse to ascribe to that mindset. That mindset makes me lazy. Instead I’m moving forward with the full confidence that my God is with me and is always for me. Not to say that God is going to get me into medical school or get me a job but that even in the face of failure I will trust that the Lord sustains me. I’m moving forward understanding that with every success there is a thousand failures preceding it. I’m learning to fight for what I believe in. I’m learning to fight for my vision. I’m learning to persevere in the face of failure.
